holding back..

have you ever had a moment in your life that you feel like you've already reached the limit and any moment, you would burst out and you wish you would just explode?

but you never get to do it because you keep holding back your emotions, afraid that someone else might get hurt??

while for some people, it is therapeutic to scream out your lungs and yell out what's bugging you...

but I, for pity's sake, am unable to do so..

because i always think of those people that might get hurt..

because i can't bear to see them crying in front of me, pitying me and patting my back, telling me that everything's gonna be alright... when in fact, it really won't...

here comes the rain again.. slowly falling on the rooftops, wetting the leaves, washing away my tears..

is there any possibility that the rain would just go up again and stay in the clouds and dry up there, instead of coming down??

or maybe my tear would just stay there in my eyes and never drop?

because that's how i feel right now...