i gave it all to HIM

after a long weekend vacation, here i am again, writing down my thoughts, replaying the events that had happened..

it all seemed so unreal..

a week ago, i went to the office, teary-eyed, my make-up is a little smudged and i was sniffing like a child.. my friends, mike and marina asked me if i was okay.. i didn't quite know what to say..

i had a hard time contemplating whether to tell them my problem or just keep it to myself.. but then i allowed my tears roll down from my eyes.. yes, i do have problems too, you know.. a lot of people see me as a jolly, perky, always-smiling-and-joking-kind of girl.. but beneath this happy face also lies an image of a hurting and wounded woman..

i told mike about the situation i was on.. who would have thought that mike, a known joker and shallow-type of guy would be able to give me a wonderful piece of advice.. i was quite surprised and impressed..

mike told me that whatever problems i was facing, i just had to give it all to God and everything will be just fine..

true... true.. so so true.. and so i uttered a little prayer for strength and then gave thanks to the Almighty for the guidance..

i admit that there has been a time that i neglected to pray because i was stucked up and was full of self-contempt. i was so wrong for doing that..

now i know that i have to be more trusting to Him.

i'm pacified now.. everything's okay.. whatever happened to me and my problem is now lost in oblivion.. now i know that i have to be more trustful and more controlled of my emotions..

because of Him, me and my honey are now settled... that's all that matters now..