fallin'

"I'm afraid to fly and I don't know why I'm
jealous of the people who are not afraid to die" ..

It has taken me quite a number of years before I was able to write my reflection on this song. I think now is the best time for me to sit down and write what is in my head and in my heart before I can no longer remember.

Falling in love is the greatest and most wonderful gift. The sky is bluer and it seems that flowers are blooming everywhere. Indeed, what an exhilarating feeling it is to love and be loved in return.

Here's the challenge though, when one loves, one dies. I don't mean the physical death, but death to oneself.

You see, when you are in love, you place that person's needs above your own. Loving entails a lot of sacrifices. Personal preferences are thrown out the window in place of something that
was mutually agreed on or sometimes one just chose to give up her own preference because love dictates it.

I admire the brave ones who can do just that, make the decision to love and allow themselves to be swept by the "magic" and mystery of it all - To trust someone with their life and
accept the commitment to be there for each other always, for better or for worse.

“It's just that I recall, back when I was small
someone promised that they'd catch me
but then they let me fall."

It's weird what one does all for the sake of love. It's sad to admit that there are also those who just love when it is convenient for them, when thing are going smoothly, the way they wanted it, the way they planned it. It's true colors are uncovered when trials sets in. Will they hold on
or will they give up.

"And now I'm fallin fast again. Why
do I always take a fall When I fall in love?"

And then you begin to ask yourself, why did I allow myself to fall in love? to be hurt? Why am I
so stupid and stubborn? I should never let it happen again! Only to find yourself falling in love again? But then, who can really resist the call to love?

"You think by now I've learned, play with
fire you get burned But fire can be oh so warm,
That's why I return."

Aha, the call to love is inherent and real. It is part of our humanity, to respond to love that is freely given. In the first place, it was God who first loved us and called us to love in return. Though it was not easy loving foolish and stubborn humans, still, He loved us because it is His nature, because God is love.

"Turn and walk away That's what I should do
My head says go and find the door My heart
says I found you."

We can never turn away from our nature-that is to love. No matter what our
head says, the decision to love lies in the heart.

"It always turns out the same Loving someone, losing myself I only got me to blame."

I'm one of the brave ones and I'm proud of it..I loved. For all its magic and mystery, the joys and the sorrows, yes, even the hurts and the pains. It was all worth it. I may have lost a
part of me in the process, but I also gain a lot of lessons.

I can still laugh at life. I responded to God's call to love. It was a decision patterned after the love of God. I have no regrets! No one is to blame. It is my nature to love.

"And maybe this time I'll have it all.
Maybe I'll make it after all Maybe this time,
I won't fall When I fall in love."

I definitely fell in love again. I took the risk and fell again, for what it's worth. This time, i know it is forever, i know that we can make it...

This time there's no letting go..