let it all out..

archie and i were on a business meeting.. we were talking about an important business proposal and about my appraisal in terms of MSI.. then he deliverd the bad news.. extremely bad news, in my case... although i expected it to happen, still i was a bit shocked & overwhelmed.. it hurts my being as a person and as an agent..

honestly, i was devastated.. i wanted to cry in front of him.. but i controlled my tears..

then suddenly, the lights went out! then it came back again.. we heard a very loud thrunderstorm outside.. the skies came crushing in.. there's a heavy downpour of rains.. seems like the gods are crying out for me too... as i've told him, "nakakidalamhati ang langit sa akin"...

i want to say - I did my best .. but like they say... I guess my best wasn't good enough ...I gave my all... But I think my all may have been too much..

right now.. here i am... facing my monitor.. teardrops are running down my face.. i guess i can no longer control my emotions..

i want to let it all out.. i want to scream.. i want to shout.. i want to jump over the window....