baby fats

my little tyke, Kian Mikael, is turning 6 months old on Thursday.. i'm gonna buy him a small cake for his special day.. actually, every month, my family celebrate his monthsies until he reaches his first year.. that's been a tradition..

yes.. it's been six months already.. and he's looking this big & cute & cuddly .... & korean?? hahaha.. onlookers in our subdivision always ask me if my son is korean and if i'm married to a chinese guy.. .. awwww...

just take a look at kyle's mine-me....my heart melts everytime he smiles...



i remember last year... when my firstborn, - kyle was six months old, i got pregnant again with my second baby.. my husband and i were surprised at first.. we didn't really expect to get preggy again coz i've just given birth.. when i informed my OB about it, she told me - "claire.. buntis ka uli? naku, CS ka pa naman.. di ba sabi ko sa u, wait after three years - hindi three months.. " hehehe.. yeah.. 3 months times two..

a year has passed.. kian is now 6 months old too.. wow.. 2 kids in a row!

this morning, an old aquaintance whom i haven't seen for 3 months saw me and she gasped! "claire! you look fat... buntis ka na naman??"

and i was like... hellloooooooo...

apparently, people are noticing a bump on my tummy.. some even noted that last year, i was pregnant when my son was 6 months old.. they thought, history is happening again.. now, they're thinking that there's a new baby again behind my plumpness..

fine... yes.. it's baby.. baby FATS!!

gosh.. i should be dieting now.. i'm really getting plump lately.. and i'm not pregnant!!

the truth is.. i'm getting pissed off because they thought i'm one big baby-making machine.. that me and my husband don't have anything to do but to make love and bear a child year after year.. i can't help but feel hurt.. just because i look fat, doesn't mean that i'm preggy.. okay?

and you, my old aquaintance, instead of asking me if i'm gravid or not, why can't you just greet me a simple "hello or how are you?".. my! you haven't changed.. you're still the same person i used to know.. always menacing, looking at someone's weakness, killjoy and obnoxious.. ahhh!! that's the reason i can't call you FRIEND.. we will never be.. you're just an aquaintance.. that's it..

anyway, just so you know, the reason i'm turning obese nowadays is because i've been taking pills (diane 35 birth control pills)... yeah, i realized, i can't get pregnant again because i already got a handful! so i'm taking pills now.. and the side effect? getting fat.. hey.. i don't care.. as long as i'm happy with my life and with my family and as long as my husband loves me and accepts me for who i am.. that's what matters most..

again to all who's been asking if i've been sperminated again... the answer is NO..

period..